I had what is classified as a “sleepless night” last night. I’m not sure what was behind such turmoil in me, but it was causing great havoc and dismay. I believe we all seek peace of mind and during the usual hours of sweet and welcome sleep.

I had what is classified as a “sleepless night” last night. I’m not sure what was behind such turmoil in me, but it was causing great havoc and dismay. I believe we all seek peace of mind and during the usual hours of sweet and welcome sleep.

I was wide awake. I got up several times, looking at the city from my window. I was a sort of sentry. My loved ones were busy making their individual comforting sounds as they were safely under my watch.

I guess we can safely say that we are living in a time unlike any other in history. We have made phenomenal technological advancements over the past two decades, yet we have fallen prey to a global pandemic that is quite reminiscent of that experienced centuries ago. We have the unimaginable capacity to watch wars between nations unfold before our eyes on news networks, but we fail miserably at universal awareness to promote mutual agreement.

Despite all the endless transformations and changes, there is one common denominator; our humanity. We are aware of emotions and trends that do not change quickly and I am grateful for it, despite the tumultuous days behind and ahead of us.

And so, I contemplated a lot on my journey in and out of the semi-lighted rooms of my house last night. I thought of loved ones who are no longer of this world and newly diagnosed illnesses for those who remain. I reveled in my smart decisions and berated myself for some of my reckless, if not selfish and somewhat immature actions. I debated whether or not I should make a New Years Resolutions list and then congratulated myself for deciding not to! I laughed and cried during my wake, finally succumbing to exhaustion and falling asleep just as darkness surrendered to dawn.

We all have sleepless nights, my friends. Perhaps we see more clearly what is hiding inside when the lights are dimmed and silence prevails. My wish for you is a healthy and happy New Year; overflowing with love and peaceful nights filled with the sweetest of dreams.

Belinda Ouellette lives in Caribou with her Goldendoodle, Barney. You can email him at [email protected].